Marilyn Pearsol Giorgetti
Born in a Nebraska Farmhouse I was a member of the greatest generation living the American dream. At midlife it all evaporated. I was left with decisions to be made that seemed unsurmountable. While my escape to France does not define my life it had a profound effect on me. All my thoughts—in fact my life— was laid bare to be painfully examined and redefined. With perseverance and faith I came to understand and accept what I had become and discover a new me with its incumbent peace. Upon my arrival home, to San Francisco, I felt like a flower which has opened up to absorb all that life has to offer.
Author's Notes
Sometimes we are the last to realize what our souls are starved for. Or maybe we do know, but we’re too fearful to risk what is safe and dependable for the challenging unknown. Sometimes life needs to turn on us to get us moving and considering risking everything.
Beyond the shores of my reality, where for three decades I faithfully performed my role as wife and mother, another realm awaited me. A realm of ancient history and personal discovery, of architectural grandeur and intellectual broadening. But in the daily patterns of my earlier years such an exploration into who I really was and what all I was capable of accomplishing was not at the forefront of my thoughts.
In the 1950s, my life was simple and grew only to a shelved status culturally determined for girls who married right out of high school. This cup consigned to me kept filled without much ado really; never overflowing, it merely teased at the lip. But life that centered round home and hearth contented me, satisfied as I was deemed to be with what I’d now describe as a homogenized expectation for women in that period of American life. It wasn’t until my divorce and a trip to South America that I was awakened to the possibilities of more. South America had captivated me with its beauty, its exotic bouquets of people and sounds, colors and scents. Returning home then, the grass felt more alive between my bare toes, just as it had in the days of my youth. Clouds were no longer inching overhead. They hastened now, as if dashing for some longed-for destiny. Fog rolled in with determination, shrouding the hillside below my coastal home. It settled so thick beneath my deck I felt I could walk out into forever. If I would just take the step I would come face to face with whatever was out there that beckoned me. And something was beckoning. I yearned for more. But more of what?
For several years more I clung to ‘safe’ and ‘dependable,’ until it all evaporated like a dream at first light. Yet my overturned world did not leave me without options; oddly, it presented me with a persuasive opportunity. A journey, as it would turn out, that would be my true coming of age, my second flowering.